We saw Dave on Thursday. He is not responding to pain and is pretty much in a Coma - BUT, I know he can hear us, he does have a subtle reaction to touch and voice.
I had my cuddles, bathed him in all the love and energy that I could muster and said my goodbyes. I know he could hear me. His eyebrows raise, he tried opening his eyes, he squeezed me hand, and I know he was trying to talk. I wish I knew what he wanted to say.
I treated this visit as if it were the last, just in case; by the next visit, he may slip farther away I wanted him to hear what I had to say; wishing I said it 4 days prior when he was up and walking and alert. Regardless, I am at Peace with saying everything I said to him, and if/when I see him again, I will say more...
I just wish I could have him wrap his arms around me one more time and hear him say 'hey kiddo - I love you'.
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squeeze. I'm here if you need a shoulder.
XOXOXXOXOXXOXXOXOX
Another time another place and you will get to hear, welcome kiddo, I love you.
Take heart in knowing that his suffering is near at an end but the forever journey gets to begin.
If you need to cry give me a call :)
Hugs to you and lair and Darcy :)
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